09/21/2014, Some people plan for their journeys. They get road maps, make reservations, formulate plans, and look forward or at least feel comfortable with their journey ahead. Whether the journey leads to a vacation, retirement, a new home, new friends, etc. we all have a journey ahead of us. Sometimes the road we travel on is of our choosing. We can choose a path of light, truth, and joy OR we can choose a path of darkness, loneliness, and despair. Our attitude and outlook on the road we are facing directly impacts the nature of the path, dark or light.
With fall & winter fastly approaching, I am ever reminded by the weather & calendar that holidays are coming up. My first holidays alone. I have always loved Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year’s. Besides being alone this year, each holiday has its’ own hardships for me. I live in a rural area, and will not get trick or treaters for Halloween. I will be alone but with my pets for Thanksgiving & I will be missing my father and feeling down being by myself without another human being. Last Christmas morning was the day that my dad went into the hospital for the last time & then came home to die on January 2nd, Christmas & New Year’s automatically give me a stomach ache when I think of them. Therefore, how am I going to get through the fall and winter seasons and holidays? What can I do to help myself? How can I turn these painful holiday roads into one of light, truth, and even some joy? For those who are alone, living alone, with a small circle of people….the holidays can really be a challenge.
I googled how to survive holidays alone, how to live alone and be happy, and several other similar topics and came up with a fall/winter holiday road map for the road ahead of me. First, I have volunteered to help a local animal rescue group at some pet events in September into late October, and will continue volunteering. Secondly, I have decided not to deny that the holidays exist because I would only be fooling myself. So, I will make/put up some decorations for each holiday as I would have done when I was married. Obviously, I am decorating the house only for my own benefit, but I have decided that decorations may help “lighten” up the mood/atmosphere in my home. Thirdly, I have signed up for some free events at the public library…. crafts, lectures, etc. By attending library events, I will at least be with other human beings in a social setting. Fourth, I will find a church and help with any events they have for the holidays and attend the events. Lastly, on the actual holidays – I will have a list of people that I can call even just to say hello and with them a happy holiday…thus connecting to another human being. I am fortunate in having pets because I can focus my attention to my pets on the holidays and find joy in their happiness.
Having events written on the calendar, whether volunteer events – library events- or church events, helps me not feel so isolated and alone. I can see on a calendar that in a week or two…I have some social activity coming up. The calendar has become a road map for me for socializing and knowing that I am part of society….part of the world.
My birthday is in December, and honestly – this will be the first birthday that I will be totally alone…not with my husband or another person. Honestly, I do not have a plan in how to get through this. The thought of another year in my life going by & being alone and lonely is really quite depressing. I am working on how I will get through this day. Maybe I will get a rotissiere chicken and share it with my pets. Then I may take myself out to a movie. I am far enough along on my Pilgrimage to a Happy Life that I know I will get through my birthday somehow.
Living alone and facing the holiday road can be a daunting experience. The holiday blues is a very real condition. However, with some planning the holidays can be faced with an attitude of — “I will get through this. I will make the holidays as joyful as possible. Those who love me or loved me (and have passed) would want me to be happy & joyful in my memories of them. Happiness is a gift I will give myself.” If you are facing the holidays alone, or even if holidays usually depress you, consider finding your own road map of survival for the holidays….make a route that will give you light, truth, and some joy.